It seems like we are moving closer to the ‘forgetting all about the pandemic’ stage of things in my area. A couple of weeks ago we moved into the next phase of opening back up here, which officially allowed dance studios to resume business partially. As I mentioned in past weeks, some studios already had instructors teaching lessons in those studios under the radar, so this change allowed them to start officially advertising those lessons to the wider public. I’ve seen the notifications that were sent out, and it sounds like everyone is excited to get back to work.
Parties are also starting back up at studios around me. These are still only allowed to have a limited number of people attend, so if you want to go you have to reserve your spot ahead of time. Some of the classes are advertising that you can attend the class virtually if you are not fast enough to secure one of the limited in-person spots. One studio I saw was even going to hold a “Grand Re-Opening” party in a couple of weeks. It’s so weird to think about like that, but I guess that they have been closed for around six months, so this really would be like a reopening of sorts for them.
I am not planning on attending any of these events. While I understand that the organizers are doing their best to keep everyone as safe from exposure as possible, the reason why I’m actually not planning on attending is really… I’m just not interested in going.
Yeah. To be completely honest here, I’ve had some time to reflect on ballroom dancing in my life, and looking back I have to say that accepting the offer to move into competitive dancing completely and away from just having fun has left this black cloud hanging over me. I’m not excited about the idea of going back to a dance studio anytime soon. Once I opted to move to being a competitive dancer, I spent so much time in studios working on the dancing I had to do for my coach that all of the fun was taken out of it. So even the idea of just going back to the studio for parties and things right now just doesn’t hold much appeal for me.
Since things have opened back up, I have gotten calls from my dance coach. He wanted to know how I was doing, how my dance partner was doing, and when we were going to meet up to start training again. I didn’t have an answer to that. I don’t know if I would want to go back to spending most nights of the week at a dance studio practicing to meet the high expectations that were placed on me as a competitor. It just… doesn’t feel like it would be a good choice.
The farther away I get from the last time I was actually on a dance floor, the less I feel like pulling out my dance shoes and jumping back onto one. There’s something really nice about the more relaxed pace that I have found for my life during the shutdown. I don’t have to worry about rushing out of the office and trying to work out and eat dinner as fast as possible most nights so that I can be someplace else to dance. I have time to just be quiet, to sit on the couch and pet the cat, which I know makes her happy. I can focus during my workouts on the movements that I am doing in the moment rather than trying to remember all the movements I would have to work on during practice after my workout is over. That makes a big difference in how much I enjoy my workouts.
Speaking of workouts… this also means that I don’t have to worry about my weight with all the weightlifting I do. My dance coach was constantly on my case about how big I was. He kept telling me that I needed to get back down to 180 lbs. (I weigh a lot more than that). His reasoning was that my shoulders were too big, so when I held my arms up while in frame I didn’t have a flat line going from elbow to elbow because my shoulder muscles were too big. If I don’t go back to dancing, I can keep all the muscle I already have, or maybe even put on more if I want! Hooray!
So what happens from here? I really don’t know. I’m sure that I will go out dancing again at some point in my future, but it probably won’t be anytime soon. I don’t know if I will continue to try and force myself to update this site once a week like I have done for so many years. If I’m not out dancing, there’s really not much to write about, is there? Maybe if I hear about exciting stuff happening in the world of dance I will make a note of it, but only if I find it amusing. Probably. Who knows?
This will give me time to focus on other things I am writing. Maybe you’ll see those somewhere on the interwebs in the near future, if you lurk around the same places that I do. But those items I write, if I finish them, will not talk about dance. I do have other ideas sometimes, after all.
I’ll still be lurking around from time to time. Feel free to poke me if you want to talk. 🙂